Ok. i have never prayed Sincerely to any god.
Because i have nevered Honestly Believed my Life Depended on some guy up in the sky wearing a Cloth and is the size of a King Kong Or a Chimpanzee.
But Now, i still do not.
However. I am Now honestly scared of Death.
I dont know why. Suddenly. Images of very scary deaths popped up in my mind.
Then i realised. Life dosent lies in the hand of Some God.. it's in Me.
Motivation i believe has to solely come from within. Outsiders can offer incentives, but they cannot motivate.
I have thus. Taught Deeply in this nick of time.
And i plead my friends to offer me their Incentives now for the time couldnt be Worse for me.
I feel that i have grown Fat to an extent i cannot Withstand Anymore.
I plan and i Really Plan to go on a Diet.
If anyone sees or feel i am Overeating.
Please. feel free to knock my head. and remind me.
i only recently have found my self-discipline to exercise.
I Swear my life on it that i will exercise, i will lose weight to a healthy status.
Ironically. i dont even need to swear my life as it automatically is on the line.
I hardly need to say my next Sin.
and that is addiction to gaming.
i'm losing words.
i Practically enjoy playing games online or offline as it gives me somehow a feeling of Spiritual Knowledge.
But only Just Recently in the nick of time.
I have learnt how to Study well.
I have prepared my best for my Mid years for Poly.
I only Sincerely hope that i Survive well to go to next year undeterred.
Seriouslly.
i'm not kidding.
I didnt write this because so that Zira will read this. Lol.
but this was what is Really that i feel.
that If i Enjoy this Current State Of lifestyle.
I will Be Normal.
or worse. Not live long enough To see my future.
I myself know best of what's happening to me.
I used to Ignore it.
Now, No more.
i want to be more than normal.
i read from a quote from a famous person.
He commended Students from a university and said to the A Students. Well done.
and to the C students. I'll See u all as the future President of the united states.
as random as this is.
I feel a Need to change my Strategy and tactics.
Now or never.
Signing off.
Perhaps my last few posts in this world.
I miss the old times9:09 AM
Lol. I GOT TAGGED BY A FISH. (How cute) lol.. Amirah!! i will KEEL u for disturbing my study time!!! Someday! lol.
1: the person who tagged u is
a person who is clueless about alot of things but is so funny and nice to be with because of that.
2:your realationship with him/her
EX-classmate lurh.. hahax.
3:Your 5 impressions of him/her
Ehh.. Idk, Idk, Idk, Idk, Idk because i hardly really talk to her and knew her.. just the surface. lol.
4:the most memorable thing she has done for me
OMFG. idk.. i cant remember.. i think she taught me Geog. lol.
5:The most memorable thing she said to u.
Ehh Ehh Ehh.. i wan Polish your boots leh, i very Bored leh. lol
6:if she/he becomes your lover.
i will SCREAM AND TRY TO FORGET. lol.
7:if she/he becomes your lover.what must he/she improve
Hmm idk. lol. she's kinda cute. n lame n funny.. hahax.. Err.. can be more Womanish?
8:if she/he becomes my enemy.
I wun talk to her alot like what i do to well.. almost all of my enemies.
i dun expect myself stuffing a knife in her.. thats jus so mean. lol
9: if she/he becomes your enemy. why do u think she became your enemy?
Idk. Lol? because i'm sooo cute that she's jealous?? I DONT KNOW!.
10:the most desired thing u want to do for her now.
Hmm Help her do her homework? lol.. Poor JC.. i at poly slack till i wan to cry. ha.
11: your overall immpression of her is.
A good fren. Should have known her more. haha
12: how do u think the people around u think about u?
I have No idea. hmm?? Quiet? Lame? Reserved? Shy? i never went to ask anyone that.
13: the characters u love of yourself is
err.. happygolucky? i find that my best because. my life was never really Straight. always up n downs. mostly downs
14: the characters u hate of yourself is
ehhh.. Shy? up to the point? sometimes too overserious?
15: the most ideal person u wanna be is.
Donald Trump! Lol. who wldnt want a tower having his name along with billions of dollars?
16: for people who cared n liked u. say something for them.
Ehh? Thank Euuuuuu. I Lub Lub eu ourl!!! Weeeeeeeee!!!
17:PASS THIS QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE U KNOW N WISHED 2 KNOW ABOUT THEM.
1:ZIRA....
2:IRFAN
3:CHERYL
4:KIMBERLY
5:SAKINAH
6:PAMELA
7:TIINQS
8:SLACKERJO
9:GUIFENG
10:FIONA
Who is number 6 having a realationship with?
No one.. she broke off recently.
Is number 9 Female or male.
Female la.. she so cute so obvious. haha..
If number 7 n 10 are together will it be a good thing?
No. Sparks wont fly. Bullets will and the world will end because now i just knew 2 more lesbians.. Somemore one very chio de.. haha n they dun even know each other.LOL
What is number 2 doing right now?
Personally. i have no idea what irfan Ever does. Lol. so i predict he's watching porn.
What was the last time u had a chat with number 3
Cheryl.. Hmm.. Oh LOL.. i never really talked a Proper Chat with her. Haha..
What kind of Music Band does Number 8 Like?
Ehh.. Pussycatdolls?? err Rihanna?? Idk.. i think Pop bands
Does no 1 have any siblings.
Yaa.. somemore got 3.. 2 big sisters n one lil brother.
will u woo no.3?
Hmm.. I probably will. after i lose weight. hahax. but then she Sure reject me flat. so i better not ask. ha
How about Number 7?
Again.. I probably will. after i lose weight. But also. Reject. so Nevermind haha
Is number 4 Single?
No, he has a Very Cute Boifren lol..
what is the surname of number 5?
lol.. malay no surname nia..
What is the hobby of number 10?
I duno.. call Someguy dinosaur n Laugh out Loud. hahax? oh n i think she's a studyholic.
Do 5 n 9 Get along with each other?
They dont Know each other.
But then One will be VERY VERY hyperactive
and the other one Not THAT hyper. lol.
Where is no 2 studying at?
Ngee ANN POLY..
Talk something Casually about number 1
Hmm.. sometimes i dont know why i think she's so cute. Ifwat la.. Corrupt my mind.haha. Sorry LA!! HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW U HAD PMS ON THAT PARTICULAR FAITHFUL DAY WHEN I COULD TREAT U ALL TO A $100+ MEAL. lol.
Have u tried developing feelings for number 8?
Lol. Risky.. Nahh she got boifren already. i'm not so evil like her. haha
Where does no 9 Live?
Ehh i dunch Know.. ?? Singapore??
What colour does number number 4 like?
I have NO idea. but i'll take a guess thats it's black.
Are number 5 n 1 best friends?
No they arent but they are good frens! i mean who can be enemies with sak. Lol.
Does no 1 have Pets?
Yahh.. a cat. Meow..
Is no 7 the Sexiest Person in the World?
Hmm?? Yes? haha..
She would wish.
What is number 10 doing now?
Ehh Fiona ah?? Talking to me about BE societyStuff Lurh. Hahaxx.
FINALLY FINISH!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. !!!! the 10 People.. U ARE TAGGED!! DO IT!! lol
I miss the old times9:20 AM
Completely Sudden Urge to blog.
I had a Lot of ideas on wat 2 blog on the back of my mind.
But it's like i said, at the back.
and i'm lazy to go rememeber.
haha.
Ok. went 2 study Like a Psycho all day long.
Reminded me of how crazy i can study like in my old O levels days.
However.
the only missing thing now is the Muttons to midnight.
My old. Damn Radio died on me and i havent been able to .. well i've never thought of getting a new one. lol.
So yea. It just isint the same.
Without old secondary school friends to Nudge me.
Or studying at BPP mac or at sak's house.
(Oh wait, i jus did those few recently. -_-")
So life's the same ol same ol.. until my Exam finishes.
My life's gonna be Booring n Booring n More booring.
But then again, so is the life after exams. lol.
K fine. Enuf of the boring part.
When i was roaming around Popular i decided to get me a book to read. so I went to Find an Old book which i Hoped it was still there and it wasnt. sadly.
So i Searched the entire popular but then phail......
but i found another book.
About NS from Mr.miyagi. lol
it showed alot of funny stuff that made me Laugh n laugh..
N now i'm again Cannot wait for NS. lol.
But God dosent like me.
When i wan this he gives me that.
when i want that he gives me this.
So who cares. as long as i dont stay in this miserable hole forever.
Signing off.
Muaaa... Forget it. *Slaps u in the face*
I miss the old times6:59 AM