Ok. i have never prayed Sincerely to any god.
Because i have nevered Honestly Believed my Life Depended on some guy up in the sky wearing a Cloth and is the size of a King Kong Or a Chimpanzee.
But Now, i still do not.
However. I am Now honestly scared of Death.
I dont know why. Suddenly. Images of very scary deaths popped up in my mind.
Then i realised. Life dosent lies in the hand of Some God.. it's in Me.
Motivation i believe has to solely come from within. Outsiders can offer incentives, but they cannot motivate.
I have thus. Taught Deeply in this nick of time.
And i plead my friends to offer me their Incentives now for the time couldnt be Worse for me.
I feel that i have grown Fat to an extent i cannot Withstand Anymore.
I plan and i Really Plan to go on a Diet.
If anyone sees or feel i am Overeating.
Please. feel free to knock my head. and remind me.
i only recently have found my self-discipline to exercise.
I Swear my life on it that i will exercise, i will lose weight to a healthy status.
Ironically. i dont even need to swear my life as it automatically is on the line.
I hardly need to say my next Sin.
and that is addiction to gaming.
i'm losing words.
i Practically enjoy playing games online or offline as it gives me somehow a feeling of Spiritual Knowledge.
But only Just Recently in the nick of time.
I have learnt how to Study well.
I have prepared my best for my Mid years for Poly.
I only Sincerely hope that i Survive well to go to next year undeterred.
Seriouslly.
i'm not kidding.
I didnt write this because so that Zira will read this. Lol.
but this was what is Really that i feel.
that If i Enjoy this Current State Of lifestyle.
I will Be Normal.
or worse. Not live long enough To see my future.
I myself know best of what's happening to me.
I used to Ignore it.
Now, No more.
i want to be more than normal.
i read from a quote from a famous person.
He commended Students from a university and said to the A Students. Well done.
and to the C students. I'll See u all as the future President of the united states.
as random as this is.
I feel a Need to change my Strategy and tactics.
Now or never.
Signing off.
Perhaps my last few posts in this world.
I miss the old times9:09 AM